"Call Me Irresponsible"

Tonight I got home just after 10:00pm, I was wanting some fresh air so put on my Ipod and went out for a walk by the water. The music of choice for my 'romantic' moonlit walk was the new Michael Buble CD 'Call Me Irresponsible'.

As I walked up Brant street from the water, the downtown core was illuminated by trees draped in lights, and the glow from each shop. It's such a lovely area. I often sit on the patio at the Starbucks and people watch, I am so glad to live in such a beautiful area.The weekends that I have my kids, we always walk/roller blade along the water front at Spencer Smith park. My kids even comment on how lucky we are to live near such a beautiful spot. The neighbour hood I live in offers such a great balance for me. The weekends I don't have the kids, it's great for a young professional, the down town coffee shops, shopping, and lakefront patio's. There is also a great variety of restaurants and bars located in the downtown area.

Balance that with the Park, splash pad, beach front, running/rollerblading path's and it's a great place for my kids on the weekends they are with me. I can't say enough about it. We also have an amazing Art Centre right on the water, with a variety of Guilds that operate out of the Centre. I feel at home in this neighbourhood. It feels good!

Nick and Alex

I have the best two kids in the WHOLE WORLD!!!

I love them so much!

I don't know where you are on your path
I have never stood in your shoes
I see not with your eyes
I know not what your purpose is here
In this stage of your evolution
But I feel blessed to know you
As you are not in my life by chance
And you are my teacher
As I hope you learn from me
I pray I show reverence to you
I pray not to judge you
I wish to let you be
Who you are
Who you dream of being
I will just be beside you
And watch you grow
And the day will come for sure
When we will know why
Our paths crossed this way
And until then my friend
Be who you must be

Diarmuid Cronin (Slightly Adapted)
Australian Friend and Poet

Letting Go

The post preceding this one is the lyrics to Sarah McLachlan's song "Ordinary Miracle". I really love the song, and it spoke to me today in a way that I had not experienced it before.

I have always believed that there is a natural order to the Universe and that all things unfold in the exact way they are suppose to. The thing I realized today is that, as human beings we 'get in our own way'.

We have trust in the universe that our cells grow, our lungs take in air, the trees grow, the sun shines, flowers bloom. We don't really worry about these things too much. We have faith that they will do what they are suppose to.

Why is it then, that as human beings we worry and fret about so many things in our lives and relationships. I wonder if the tree worries that its trunk is too thick? Or that its branches are too long? or that they have too many leaves? is neuroses a condition that only humans are saddled with?

Do our ego's and pride cause more worry and stress? If we had more trust in the Universe, that things are all on the right track and that things are unfolding the way they are suppose to, would we be able to relax and enjoy more?

Everyone that I know worries, about there weight, their relationship, getting a job if they are unemployed. I wonder if we just stopped and had faith, that our lives would be less complicated. Could we potentially have less disease, less depression, less angst about our every day to day lives?

When I identify things that I trust and have faith in...my relationship with God, the love I have for my children....I don't have any angst about them. They are effortless and I trust in them. I need to start having more faith in me, and let go of some of the things I struggle with.

Easier said than done, I know. I am always stressing about my weight, I worry that people won't like me, or be attracted to me because I have a few extra pounds, it becomes all consuming. I wonder what would happen if I TRULY let the issue of my weight go....

I wonder if I would be free to fully be myself, with out thinking that people are judging me, and in the process, win people with my authentic heart. My organic way of BEING. An interesting thought. I can already hear my head refuting even the possibility. I have some work to do.......

Ordinary Miracle

It’s not that usual when everything is beautiful
It’s just another ordinary miracle today

The sky knows when its time to snow
You don’t need to teach a seed to grow
It’s just another ordinary miracle today

Life is like a gift they say
Wrapped up for you everyday
Open up and find a way
To give some of your own

Isn’t it remarkable?
Like every time a raindrop falls
It’s just another ordinary miracle today

Birds in winter have their fling
And always make it home by spring
It’s just another ordinary miracle today

When you wake up everyday
Please don’t throw your dreams away
Hold them close to your heart
Cause we are all a part
Of the ordinary miracle

Ordinary miracle
Do you want to see a miracle?

Its seems so exceptional
Things just work out after all
It’s just another ordinary miracle today

The sun comes up and shines so bright
It disappears again at night
It’s just another ordinary miracle today

It’s just another ordinary miracle today